Amanda Batula and Kyle Cooke have different ideas about what their future holds.
In the April 30 episode of Summer House, Amanda, 33, and Kyle, 42, went out for a lunch date on a rooftop in New York City. Amanda said in a confessional interview that she felt like her and Kyle’s relationship had landed “in just a really good place” after she felt “really lost last year.”
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“Putting myself out there starting this swimwear line and then being on my medication, I feel like I’m starting to find myself again and like figure out who I am and what I want,” she told the cameras. “And that’s very empowering.”
At lunch, Kyle gave Amanda an update on some bloodwork he had done recently. “There was just one thing that was a little concerning,” the Loverboy founder and CEO said. “He was like, ‘You should take a fertility test,’ because my testes were like, working overtime to basically pump out semen.”
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Amanda questioned whether that meant Kyle was sterile, but he explained that the bloodwork results had “nothing to do with my fertility.” Still, Amanda told Kyle that “it wouldn’t be the end of the world” if he couldn’t have kids.
“I’m in like a weird place,” she continued. “Because there’s some days where I feel like, why am I not pregnant right now? Like, what are we doing? Why are we wasting our time? And then there’s other days where I’m like, should I even have kids?”
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Kyle Cooke and Amanda Batula at the ‘Summer House’ season 7 reunion in New York City
Kyle asked his wife of three years how long she felt like that. Amanda said it had been one year.
“I think it’s just because of how much I’ve been struggling to take care of myself sometimes,” the reality star explained. “I’m like, I’m not suited to take care of something else.”
Amanda added that she’d been going “back and forth” on how she feels about having children. “I don’t love that I feel that way, but I think I need to make sure I’m okay,” the Bravo star said.
That surprised Kyle, as he claimed he hadn’t heard her vocalize any of those concerns before.
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Amanda pointed out that Kyle hadn’t been “itching and eager” for kids.
“Time’s ticking and 90% of the blood, sweat and tears I put into Loverboy was for our future, for kids,” Kyle said in a confessional. “In my mind, the only true payoff is if there’s something more than what’s in my life now.”
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Bravo stars (from left) Tom Schwartz, Alex Propson and Kyle Cooke
Earlier in the episode, Kyle spoke to visitor Tom Schwartz about how he expected to be a dad at this point in his life, saying that he used to think anyone in their 40s who didn’t have a child was “a selfish prick.”
“I’m 42, would never have thought I would not have kids right now,” Kyle said to the Vanderpump Rules alum, also 42. “Dude, I think we’re going to be great dads. We’re just going to be really old.”
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In the April 23 episode, Kyle told Tom and Carl Radke that he ordered a fertility test online after noticing “a little red flag on my bloodwork.”
“It’s not that were like trying to have kids, but am I curious about fertility, absolutely,” Kyle said in a confessional interview. “I’m 42. I probably stood a little too close to the microwave. I don’t know what kind of impact that has.”
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Summer House airs Wednesdays at 9 p.m. ET on Bravo.
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